This is perhaps the oldest story of the world. Whenever I look at these 2 pictures, I seem to mock at the very tragedy. I actually see myself as that young & stupid girl. Honestly, I never expected my humor to be so sickening but one deteriorates with time. I still believe in relationships, love, & marriage but yes something has gone rotten. Otherwise I would have been the last one to jeer at such a thing. D. H. Lawrence very rightly said:
“Everything has its hour of ridicule – everything.”
And I just can’t believe I’m the one who’s making fun of such a beautiful emotion or maybe it’s the very act of insulting the feeling that makes me laugh at the whole scenario.
But somehow these 2 pictures also provide one an opportunity to look at certain things from another angle. Perhaps when you reach at the stage where you can laugh at yourself, you can surely go beyond. D. H. Lawrence has been one of my mentors & now I begin to understand certain things that I did take for granted years ago. He was right about many things that I couldn’t understand in depth at that time. For instance, not doing it, but knowing about it is regarded as dirty understanding or sin, which is no doubt hypocritical approach. Then there is a limit to everything. There is a limit to love. And it all ends in materialism; there can’t be any reasonable doubt about that. You know actually everything is connected.
Well I made one blunder though. I didn’t ask myself the question: what’s the worst that could happen? I realize now that it’s better to face your fear. You must find out its limit. Since there’s a limit to everything, there ought to be a limit to fear as well.
There’s no way you can change your nature, at least not overnight, but that too could change. Sometimes it only takes a moment & sometimes it takes years. Everything you ever believed in goes in the fucking gutters just like that. What are you left with? You change. Your nature also changes. I have seen countless changes in myself over the years.
“But you can’t change your nature & mode of consciousness like changing your shoes. It is a gradual shedding. Years must go by, & centuries must elapse before you have finished.”
D. H. Lawrence
Some of us only need 2 decades to understand the comedy of it all. 11 years ago when I had my near death experience, it dawned on me that I had never lived actually. I was just looking at life from a distance. Even later on, the situation didn’t change much. But the soul, which is a dark, vast forest with wild life in it comes to the rescue finally. Everything I guess happens at an appointed time.
However, my soul has been slightly rotten right from the beginning. Anyway, I’ve always liked the tagline: ‘darr kay agay jeet hai!’ Never thought I would ever have the courage to face my fear but now I’m all set to take this cruise. Bad experiences are not bad, after all. If I could get over my fear, I’ve got to thank all the bad happenings.
“Everything has its hour of ridicule – everything.”
And I just can’t believe I’m the one who’s making fun of such a beautiful emotion or maybe it’s the very act of insulting the feeling that makes me laugh at the whole scenario.
But somehow these 2 pictures also provide one an opportunity to look at certain things from another angle. Perhaps when you reach at the stage where you can laugh at yourself, you can surely go beyond. D. H. Lawrence has been one of my mentors & now I begin to understand certain things that I did take for granted years ago. He was right about many things that I couldn’t understand in depth at that time. For instance, not doing it, but knowing about it is regarded as dirty understanding or sin, which is no doubt hypocritical approach. Then there is a limit to everything. There is a limit to love. And it all ends in materialism; there can’t be any reasonable doubt about that. You know actually everything is connected.
Well I made one blunder though. I didn’t ask myself the question: what’s the worst that could happen? I realize now that it’s better to face your fear. You must find out its limit. Since there’s a limit to everything, there ought to be a limit to fear as well.
There’s no way you can change your nature, at least not overnight, but that too could change. Sometimes it only takes a moment & sometimes it takes years. Everything you ever believed in goes in the fucking gutters just like that. What are you left with? You change. Your nature also changes. I have seen countless changes in myself over the years.
“But you can’t change your nature & mode of consciousness like changing your shoes. It is a gradual shedding. Years must go by, & centuries must elapse before you have finished.”
D. H. Lawrence
Some of us only need 2 decades to understand the comedy of it all. 11 years ago when I had my near death experience, it dawned on me that I had never lived actually. I was just looking at life from a distance. Even later on, the situation didn’t change much. But the soul, which is a dark, vast forest with wild life in it comes to the rescue finally. Everything I guess happens at an appointed time.
However, my soul has been slightly rotten right from the beginning. Anyway, I’ve always liked the tagline: ‘darr kay agay jeet hai!’ Never thought I would ever have the courage to face my fear but now I’m all set to take this cruise. Bad experiences are not bad, after all. If I could get over my fear, I’ve got to thank all the bad happenings.
