‘So long as I am here you are quite incapable of killing yourself, no matter how much you want to. I have the power of life & death over you!’
‘But you won’t always be there,’ said the boy with an odd look.
‘That’s where you are wrong! I shall always be there.’
He had a little thrill of pleasure. He had caught a sudden flash of curiosity in the lovely hazel eyes.
‘Suppose I do want to kill myself, what’s that got to do with you! You don’t even know who I am!’
‘Just a little mania of mine – as you said yourself,’ replied Daniel jovially. ‘I happen to have a passion for preventing people from doing what they want to do.’
A look of kindliness came into his eyes: ‘Are things really as bad as all that?’
The boy made no reply.
Jean-Paul Sartre
(Iron in the Soul)
When you’re being suicidal, you don’t ever come across anyone asking this question: ‘Are things really as bad as all that?’ If anyone would, that can surely make a hell of a difference. People only judge you; 99 % don’t have time to understand as to why someone wants to kill himself or has no interest in staying alive. Of course there are reasons & they could be valid. Ask anyone who is thinking about contemplating suicide. In fact people around you even make it all the more difficult for you to go on as they all know how you must lead your life. Even best people don’t miss the chance of jeering at you, which is so very low & insensitive.
It’s not just mental illness that could make you suicidal; there are variety of other reasons that also make people commit suicide. What I find ironic is that lots of terminally ill people don’t want to die & yet they die. On the other hand, there are people who don’t want to live at all & they take life for granted & finish it.
I used to harm myself. There were times when I took 30 sedatives & I woke up the next day; it was such a big time disappointment. I did that a couple of times in my early 20s. But when I had my near death experience, my perspective changed completely. I believe I needed to experience that sort of trauma to wake up. Life is certainly not to be taken for granted. We must give it a chance. I think I survived death, cause I know chronic depression very well & I’m telling you can fight this illness. Suicide is never the answer no matter how bad things are. While reading about cancer patients last night, I felt really bad, cause there was a time when I thought nothing of life.
Anyway instead of judging the victims, we need to be more supportive. You know even if one person doesn’t commit suicide cause of your moral support, that is definitely 100 % success.
Talk to someone you can trust. There are people who understand even the most impossible & unbelievable things. Believe me there are such people. Don’t treat yourself as shit. At least go till the end & find out. Choose life, not death! So many don’t have that choice. You know what bad experiences are trials to make us better people. Tragic happenings are eye-openers as they tell us good things are waiting for us. Meeting horrible people & getting stabbed in the back is essential for growth. Only then we value the ones who truly care about us & accept us with all our faults.
And I’m kind of tired of typing now :P
‘But you won’t always be there,’ said the boy with an odd look.
‘That’s where you are wrong! I shall always be there.’
He had a little thrill of pleasure. He had caught a sudden flash of curiosity in the lovely hazel eyes.
‘Suppose I do want to kill myself, what’s that got to do with you! You don’t even know who I am!’
‘Just a little mania of mine – as you said yourself,’ replied Daniel jovially. ‘I happen to have a passion for preventing people from doing what they want to do.’
A look of kindliness came into his eyes: ‘Are things really as bad as all that?’
The boy made no reply.
Jean-Paul Sartre
(Iron in the Soul)
When you’re being suicidal, you don’t ever come across anyone asking this question: ‘Are things really as bad as all that?’ If anyone would, that can surely make a hell of a difference. People only judge you; 99 % don’t have time to understand as to why someone wants to kill himself or has no interest in staying alive. Of course there are reasons & they could be valid. Ask anyone who is thinking about contemplating suicide. In fact people around you even make it all the more difficult for you to go on as they all know how you must lead your life. Even best people don’t miss the chance of jeering at you, which is so very low & insensitive.
It’s not just mental illness that could make you suicidal; there are variety of other reasons that also make people commit suicide. What I find ironic is that lots of terminally ill people don’t want to die & yet they die. On the other hand, there are people who don’t want to live at all & they take life for granted & finish it.
I used to harm myself. There were times when I took 30 sedatives & I woke up the next day; it was such a big time disappointment. I did that a couple of times in my early 20s. But when I had my near death experience, my perspective changed completely. I believe I needed to experience that sort of trauma to wake up. Life is certainly not to be taken for granted. We must give it a chance. I think I survived death, cause I know chronic depression very well & I’m telling you can fight this illness. Suicide is never the answer no matter how bad things are. While reading about cancer patients last night, I felt really bad, cause there was a time when I thought nothing of life.
Anyway instead of judging the victims, we need to be more supportive. You know even if one person doesn’t commit suicide cause of your moral support, that is definitely 100 % success.
Talk to someone you can trust. There are people who understand even the most impossible & unbelievable things. Believe me there are such people. Don’t treat yourself as shit. At least go till the end & find out. Choose life, not death! So many don’t have that choice. You know what bad experiences are trials to make us better people. Tragic happenings are eye-openers as they tell us good things are waiting for us. Meeting horrible people & getting stabbed in the back is essential for growth. Only then we value the ones who truly care about us & accept us with all our faults.
And I’m kind of tired of typing now :P
